THE GOOD, THE BAD, & THE HUMAN

My hair is short.

I don’t shampoo it.

I don’t always wear a bra.

I usually keep my nails cut short.

I like wearing black eyeliner.

I will spend a lot of money on good shoes and jackets.

I get Botox sometimes.

I’ve thought about getting some form of plastic surgery but haven’t.

I don’t eat sugar.

I like Indian food and Mexican food.

I used to overeat and have an unhealthy relationship with food.

Now I’m noticing old patterns in this area returning.

I love driving my motorbike and singing to my headphones very loud.

I drive fast.

I like to go out dancing to house music, and

I will drink soda water instead of alcohol.

I meditate most mornings.

I am a Reiki Master Teacher.

I love Jesus and Buddha both.

I help others in many ways, mainly as a life coach and as an AA member.

Helping others is the biggest and best thing in my life.

I wish I had discovered the power of service earlier, but I wasn’t ready.

I have a lot of flaws.

I can be people-pleasing, lazy, judgmental, pessimistic, resentful, self-pitying, and get overwhelmed.

Although I haven’t drank alcohol or used mind or mood-altering substances for a long time,

most of my life has been colored with some form of addiction, obsession, compulsion.

I’ve had a lot of relationship issues.

I’ve used people as drugs.

I’ve used myself.

I want a healthy romantic relationship where me and my partner have mutual respect, admiration, and trust.

I have never had that before.

I am practicing self-respect, self-trust, and acknowledging the good things about me.

And cultivating self-compassion.

I’m saying all this to paint a picture of me, 𝗡𝗮𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗲.

I am not all good or all bad. I have strengths and flaws.

I have things that will annoy some people, and

these same things others will love.

The right person for me will accept it all.

I’m open to that person entering my life.

In the meantime, I want to remember myself.

I don’t need to change to try and please others.

The right person for me will love all of the things, or at least accept me despite them.

I can’t please everyone.

I can’t do enough to please the wrong person.

I will never be enough for them.

I get to love and accept myself and make choices that support self-love.

Others will follow.

Some will not, and that’s ok too.

Nothing is personal.

Everyone only sees their own projections of others.

I have never truly seen anyone.

I am your projection. You are mine.

So what do I choose to see today?

Will I take everyone’s views on as personal, or can I be like Teflon and let others’ opinions of me slide right off?

It depends on the day.

And that’s ok.

I’m ok today.

How about you?

Always here for you

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