2 YEARS SUGAR FREE
(A twist on “one year, no beer”)
This month marks 2 years no sugar for me
I’ve had numerous substitutes for beer since I gave it up in 1999 at 22 years old.
The sugar game has been a much longer and more painful one to play, but I’m so grateful to say that it has been 2 years now that I have not indulged in any candy
I acknowledge myself
I will not buy that bag of chips or cookies.
Those things are like beer
Most days, I live in a position of neutrality, safe and protected, from the desire to binge.
On rare days, suddenly I see the cafe dessert case from across the room, like it was a long-lost lover
I get captivated
Sugar and bingeing gave me that same warm embrace I sought in a romantic partner
Nowadays, when I notice the urge to splurge, I see it as data – information about my internal landscape
Something is off within me if I want to use food to medicate my emotions
Today I don’t abandon myself, reject or ridicule, when I feel that old familiar craving come on, or that hollow emptiness that rises inside like thunderclouds building on the horizon
I just notice and be. I sit with myself. I acknowledge my awareness as an act of self love
The love I sought through sugar and substances, I give myself
This I have found to be the winning formula- praying
Whether it be to use food
I’ll keep sharing about my progress on this path in hopes it helps you on yours
Wherever you are on your journey, I acknowledge you
If you’re in denial
And I will meet you there too
Because I’ve been there before, and I know, and understand
What is it for you? What is your crutch? And where are you on the journey?
There is no better use of my experience than to help others with what I have learned. I am here for you
PS – my foto is unedited, unairbrushed and unfiltered aside from basic lighting/color. No face or body smoothing or skinnying or youthify-ing effects have been applied.
This is the real me