I got pregnant on New Years Eve, 1998. I was drunk. I still remember cheering NINETEEN NINETY-NINE like a madwoman outside the bar as fireworks went off at midnight. My full bladder didn’t like all the jumping and screaming, so I made the drunken decision to keep celebrating and empty my bladder at the same time. I brought in the new year with soggy pants and piss-filled shoes, and continued the party later on by getting accidentally pregnant in the first hours of the new yea

A year ago today I was in an AA Big Book study with my sponsor. We were reading page 31 of the book. I read the sentence “Through every form of self-deception and experimentation, they would try to prove themselves exceptions to the rule, therefore nonalcoholic.” My sponsor asked me if I had been deceiving myself and experimenting in my sobriety by dabbling in gray areas with some things I had told him about. That question rocked my world and caused me to take 21 years off my

I have spent the majority of my life in the meeting rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. Since I was first sent to rehab at 17, Twelve Step programs have been a backdrop of my life. In 1999, at the age of 22, I put down alcohol and drugs for good. When I was in the early years of recovery, I had certain boundaries in place that kept me strong in my recovered life. Abstaining from drugs and alcohol was the hardest line I drew that separated my drunk and sober self, and the most obvi

Then My eyelids are heavy and they don’t want to open. Yet the stark light is insistent, telling me that it’s late. I turn away from the window onto my right side. My left temple’s throbbing intensifies, an unwelcome reminder of last night’s overindulgence.  My whole body feels like it’s encased in lead. I want to escape again into sleep, but the incessant stream of thought has already begun to roar between my ears, preventing a relapse into unconsciousness. Fragments of last

Welcome to my blog! Below you will find my intro video where I explain why I am called to share this message of hope and encouragement for those in recovery who have found themselves depressed, dry and not sober, and possibly consumed with other addictions. Please like, comment, and subscribe to my YouTube channel and my blog here to learn how you can regain the joy of living again! Here is a general transcript of what my first video is about: Hi! I am here to share my exper